Things Remained Undone But Required To Be Done

I spent all night and part of the morning in the Maths Room, doing works and discussion on the last two upcoming events of Maths Society while crapping at the same time with my two fellow Excos. I came to a realization from that all-nighter, what a deep shit hole we're in. Major shit that needed to scoop it out of our doorstep - money. Money is honestly the devil to the whole thing. While the saying 'Money is not everything' is true, so does its following phrase, 'But everything is money.' Printing needs money, organizing event needs money, payment on the hotel needs money, everything shit thing needs money. Even the performances also need money. Sponsorship, while it's not too little, it could still do better. Every devil spawns need freaking thing called money.

Then, the people themselves. One of the events require a major push-up to make sure it runs smoothly. The committee members seems like a bunch of non-functioning machines, providing nothing much to the event. Unwillingness to sacrifice is one of the major problem. Commitment issue.

The 'know nothing' policy seems to be implemented throughout the whole activities. Little information were shared among us Excos to the point that we can say something of this sort, "Hey, is that supposed to be in it?". Blurness to the highest level.

Time itself is also another f**ked up matter. Everything have to be done before Chinese New Year 'cause once the break is over, all hell gonna breaks loose. Both the events came one after the other, with a one week gap between them. And still, barely everything is settled and finalized. Too many holes still need stitchings and mendings to make a perfect shirt. Even if it's not perfect also must be presentable. The more closer it gets, the more bleak I'll be, something I'm not really famous for.

And all these are just events-related. There's a lot studies that require to be done. While I never claim to be those whose eyes solely focus on books, it's seems to be quite a while since I truly touch a book. Even the test last Thursday night, all the studies were done on the afternoon itself.
But studies never really the main focus since I can quite catch up rather well. Not to brag here. And something's need to be done regarding our final year project. Mastering the basic and stuffs. Oh yea, internship too. Shit, application letter and resume still remain blank pages.

Amidst all the workloads that keep piling up, tensions arise between friendship. The ties might cut off without knowing how or why. Long-lasting friendship is very hard to find and maintain. All the friends I made in my university years I intended to keep for the rest of my life, however fews they are. Therefore, I always walk a careful pathway, applying the 'kaokei' (anything) policy so that I won't easily offended anyone or being offended by anyone. I know that I'm quite vengeful in a way. I can remember who wrong me for long time. The forgive-but-not-forget. So, being 'kaokei' helps a lot in lowering the names in my list. Not like there's one to begin with.

How I wish I could just slip off doing nothing, knowing nothing. Being a problem-free person people often associated me with. Somehow, what I intended to blog today ended up differently from what I had in mind.